"Random musings..."

Now that radiation is done, my spirits are a wee bit better. It's still weird and difficult to process that I have cancer. In one moment, my brain seems fine and able to tackle the task at hand. Then in an instant, I remember my life will never be the same with this cancer. I continue to pray that the medicines shrink the tumors. It's still very difficult to swallow, and I'm suppose to drink at least 65 ounces of water or powerade per day. I manage to complete that task, but have to use a certain liquid prescription that numbs the throat where the radiation was geared to.

As I said, it's difficult to process having this cancer. My mind tells me I should be planting my flowers, golfing, or being more active. My body tells me that is not possible yet. I did have a wonderful surprise when I got home from shopping for Wes's birthday present today. Polly and Kim, two of my good friends, came over and planted petunia's in my porch box. There both huge K-State fans, and actually tried to get me red and blue plants, but the colors available were red and white. It was a sweet surprise from two good friends. I appreciated the smile, and especially seeing Kim's daughter Blair, whom I've spoiled often and puts a smile on my face every time I see her. Blair, out of the blue a couple of years ago, called Wes and I and wanted to spend the night. We loved that she did, and she came over and Wes and I had a blast babysitting her.

I'm finding I'm still tired from the radiation, and will be anxious to get a week out of treatments so the throat can heal. In that sense, I want time to move fast. Otherwise, time moves slow. It's still hard to believe I've been living with this for over 2 months. It's flown by, but it also goes slow.

Keep the prayers coming,
Much Love,
Julie